Hello hello! Just a couple quick updates. The numbers are slowly starting to go down again on the scale.
The Running Room Learn to Run Clinic is going surprising well. Last night we started six reps of running for two minutes and walking for one minute. I actually survived! I have found that that way to not hyper focus and then hyperventilate is to concentrate not on my breath, but on the sound our feet make when we hit pavement. Hey, whatever works..
Although no great weight loss (what else is new?), I have noticed I’m trimming down. My squishy midsection is actually starting to look a little toned.
I feel so incredibly relaxed after a run. I can understand why people get addicted to this.
This little tidbit, I’m not proud to announce, but I have decided to start taking my happy pills once more. My doc will not be thrilled; on paper my life is pretty good. However, in my head, not so much lately. My decision came after I rushed home in the middle of the pastor’s sermon at church, convinced I had forgotten to turn off one of the burners on the stove (turns out I did not), and having put the milk carton away…in the pantry.
Yup. My focus has been less than stellar and the loneliness was starting to turn into depression. My son has suggested that I might be ADHD. His therapist (don’t judge, I’m super proud of him that he is talking to someone about what is troubling him) told him that ADHD is often passed down from a parent. I think they might be on to something. My mom, bless her soul, is not the brightest tool in the shed and there are quite a few of my uncles and aunts that have a facial tic. I always just brushed it off as nervousness, but maybe it really is a neurological thing.
Now, after just one day of back on anti-anxiety meds, I feel so calm and less jittery. My brain is happily swimming in a sea of serotonin. I think it’s doing a nice backstroke in there. Paxil, I love you and hate you at the same time.
So, I’m doing what I need to do to be happy and take care of myself. The world is a much less scary place when I’m medicated. Probably less scary for those around me too, lol!
Have a great day, all.