I’m discouraged. Yesterday was my weigh in. I only lost 0.8 pounds. Well, at least I did not gain, right?
So, what went wrong. Ok, let’s back track. I have had three very emotional weeks. Long story short, a family member moved back home in early November. It is not the most convenient situations, but family is family and I felt like my hands were tied.
Things were going well, but lately old patterns have resurfaced. These patterns are toxic and send me into an emotional/mental tailspin. Whenever this happens, I have a hard time focusing on anything. My world turns black and I give up on myself. It drains me and all I want to do is go to sleep and not wake up.
I also got together with some friends on three different occasions. I thought I was making good choices, but when I got back home to calculate points…not the case!
I was so tired and discouraged last night that I decided not to stay for the meeting. I just wanted to go to the safety of my bed. The leader was so kind; she asked what was wrong and really encouraged me to not give up. I really needed a kind word.
So, I’m back in the saddle. I won’t give up, I will do my best not to let this family member drag me down with him. Please wish me luck and send me some good vibes.